short blurbs i wrote

Honesty
is what i see when i gaze into your eyes
If i look close enough will i see your soul?
i wanna feel safe in your arms
will your eyes keep me safe or do they lie?
October 7,2002

Relief
is what i get when i write
down my thoughts
Expressions of myself
on the notepad
No one to talk to
something to say
hello mister paper
goodbye thoughts
relief.
October 8, 2002

life changes
you knew it would
suddenly your life is totally diffrent
you wake up one day
and its gone
the life you once had
has dissappeared
reality sets in and
now your the adult
i dont think i wannabe
the adult right now
October 12, 2002

sometimes i wish i could go back back when things were so simple
no tears were shed, happiness was all we ever knew
but those days are gone memories are what we have left
why is my life so complicated
will it please be my turn to be happy
when will the heartache end?
what am i doing wrong?
sometimes i wish i could be done
done with everything completely
but i'm stuck in this shallow world of nothing,
about to break it off
i cant stand this empty space all i really need is to be free
October 10, 2002

blank stare on her face
brain is on overdrive.
Overthinking?
she holds back tears
tears of pain?
sadness?
heartache?
secrets she only knows
only for her weary eyes
troubled glance
she wipes a single tear from the corner of her nose
::sniffs :stupid me
stupid life
November 3, 2002

bitter on everything
bitter from one
bitter forever
too bitter to see a good thing
bitter until the end
then what?
who wants to be bitter
missing out on something great
missing out on me
are you still bitter?
or scared to love again?
afraid of being hurt?
June 21, 2001

have you ever been
caught in a moment
lost in the season
of your life
do you ever
try and remember
the way things were
years before
where will you be
when your finally happy
and your life turned out
the way you wanted it too
will you know it
or are you lost in the moment
will you ever liveyour life
just for today?
December 23, 2002

Confusion
thoughts of stupidity and
fear of rejection
consume me
feeling unworthy, unwanted
and and unlikely candidate
run through my mind
i'm so confused
mentally and emotionally
broken down
too scared to ask how you really feel
too embarassed to admit anyof my feelings
January 12, 2003